deadline or no deadline?

no deadline....

well the friends I am running with would love for me to commit to the half marathon that is coming up in a few weeks. it sounds so fun... but I really don't want to have a deadline.
when I committed to this i wanted it to be a practice that complimented my new way of "doing" things.
learning pace. going with the flow. learning how to get there without a deadline. i'll arrive when i arrive.
yeah. so i'm not signing up for this one. but i know that eventually i will be ready. and i will know i am ready.
i trust this process.

BUT i did hear that there is a 5k coming up in a short while and for the first time ever that sounds very very manageable! so i think i might do that. how cool will it be to get a number :)

still running

I'm still running...
its been gentle lately, because my shins have been inflamed a bit and because its been raining straight through 7 days now. Its nature break for me. I've had few light jogs and I am amazed about the fact that the easy stuff for me now, used to be what felt almost impossible. that is awesome to experience. growth.

I got some awesome shoes. nike free shoes. taylor introduced me to them from his wish list. they have soles that bend and shape to your foot. its supposed to be as close to running barefoot as a shoe can mimic. its cool. it took awhile to get used to them, but now i wear them around the house and feel like a track star. hahah
its so fun to do new things in life.

I got there...

Last night I went out to run and I felt like a ton of bricks. I went for awhile thinking eventually I was just going to break through the fog. It never really happened though and I decided to be kind to my body and let it walk. There was a storm brewing and I left the process for some sushi... a vegetarian sunshine roll that was delicious. I went home and went to sleep.
I think sometimes we just have to honor where are bodies are on a particular day. I went to the process. I was present and that seemed to be the most important part. I know I will run better next time because I kept the habit going. I got there....

Bliss while running

I have had several BLISSFUL moments while running.

always the music beating in my head. always my core moving my body forward. always the future on the screen in front of me. always the present moment wrapped around me like a sphere of bliss.

pace

I am already amazed at how much training for the 1/2 marathon is teaching me about all aspects of my life.
I am re-remembering how much pace plays into endurance. and endurance requires resting points.
I have always been quite capable at enduring. moving forward for very very long periods of time with little rest. but looking back, maybe I was tired at times and didn't allow myself to rest. maybe I pushed too hard.

now I am learning how to move forward in an even better way. in a way that allows a more enjoyable balance for relaxation and rest.
I'm learning my personal pace. my personal pace allows more ENJOYMENT in moving forward.

Pace.

ok...I'm going to train

After emailing and talking with people who have trained before... I have decided I am going to train for a 1/2 Marathon! yeah.

Here's the really big addition though... no time stamp. no time line. no dates.

just like my preparation for our new Divine Playhouse space... just like I am doing with just about every other project in my life... there is no projected TIME that this has to be completed. i'm in this for the PROCESS. the ENJOYMENT. the EXPERIENCE.
no expectations. no pushing, shoving, or foul behavior. this is going to be another change to practice this concept of JOURNEY for the experience of the PLEASURE.

I'll run a 1/2 marathon whenever I am ready.

ok. I'm excited about this. my body feels eager to participate.

1/2 Marathon ???

I've always wanted to run in a race. Not to win a race, just to be in the crowd of running people... moving forward as a whole mass. And I like the path forward. I like the training. I like the attention to the body.

So Chrissy wants to train for a 1/2 marathon. At first I said "no way" I am all about relaxing and hibernating right now. right??

well... I also feel like I am looking to get more connected to my physical body. get out of my mind and my spirit a little more often and get connected to the physical body I am living in. I'm also good with goals. good with moving forward with purpose.

so, maybe.
yeah.