synthesize

Synthesize - this word means to put something together, to make something out of different parts. If you stitched a quilt together from different scraps of cloth, or built a car out of parts from a junkyard, you would be synthesizing. In chemistry, synthesizing means putting together new molecules. The act of synthesizing is called synthesis.

Even though we often use the word "synthetic" to describe human-made materials, synthesis also happens in nature. When the body makes molecules of DNA or proteins, we say the body is synthesizing these molecules.

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The last week or so has been very interesting. I have been very weak physically. moving slow as if my mind wants every ounce of my energy to process information... or maybe its another part of my being that is in overdrive.

my brain feels like it is defragmenting the hard drive. I am SYNTHESIZING information and creating a new map of creation within my being.

I have been laying on the couch, or the porch, or in the bed a lot this past week. I read, nap, take notes... get up planning to do something, and then fall back into the same heap of concentration all over again. lots of synthesis going on...

Dreams in the night

I had a dream... and now I am awake at 2:47 in the morning with a sense of awe.
Taylor had a dream too, and in his dream he asked me a question. It woke me enough to realize what I had just been dreaming. so I am glad he was talking in his sleep.

I am filled with a certain sense of awe right now. the night is still all around me and I can feel the dream still alive in me as reality. I am sleepy and I will go back to bed in just a bit... but I didn't want to let the dream slip away. I didn't want to miss this moment. I had to write a moment, and capture the moment to remember tomorrow.

...

something amazing is happening again.
something new and fresh is unfolding in my life and I am walking in the middle of it only half aware.

dreams give us a greater glimpse.
and i want to remember all this inspiration

Summer Possibility ~ from the Life List

It might not be summer yet in your world... but my summer officially started today.
I was walking back from 5points the other day with a friend and we started talking about horseback riding... and I said "Its on my life list to ride horses on the beach. I'm gonna try to do that this summer.... " and so I started thinking about a lot of things on my life list. I picked some out as possibilities for this summer.


******POSSIBILITY******
* start the porch parties
* read a fiction book in a hammock
* ride horses on the beach
* swim with dolphins (just signed up for this! end of july)
* go out on a harley (with a driver!) and take a ride on a back road
* hang a swing in my house
* lay a blanket in a field during & dream like a child.... no limits
* sing live karaoke (just did this!! and will again :)
* paint and send letters to friends that are written on huge sheets of butcher paper
* paint an entire block with sidewalk chalk… bring in people from the neighborhood to help (ah! I did this!! cool... I'll do it again)
* take my backpack and hang out in a seclude corner of the park with my laptop all afternoon
* make webpages that tell stories of the people that inspire me
* camping

not pushing to make all these things happen...
just going with the flow.
and SURELY other great things will fill in all the gaps ....

even MORE pleasure please....

Whats your **pleasure*** ???
what makes you feel undeniably grateful to be alive?
do you know your satisfaction?

Is it something you have
is it something you feel
something touched or
is your pleasure a state of experience

I have found that people sometimes shy away from the word ... pleasure.


or put it off.... pleasure later.
deny it... never. not for me.
or turn away. walk away. and walk into dissatisfaction.
no pleasure....

* ~ * ~ * ~
I am stepping into the middle of my experience of pleasure.
I have walked to the center and I am bellowing out my desire for MORE.

more freedom
more movement
more releasing
more space
more experiences
more flavors
more dancing
more singing
more exchange

more sunshine
more moonlight
more stillness
more beauty
more pleasure please

Arms open wide.
Room for more.
This is my life
and I am enjoying this Pleasure.
unbounded.

so damn busy and i LOVE it....

Welll..... summer sabatical is in full gear.
and this grlll is loving her creative pleasures!

I finally got my office all set up (or at least set up ENOUGH ) thigns are organized again and sorted into more manable zones. painting stuff here, fabrics here, and a very tall bookshelf that is covered in "project stacks"

i am so stoked about working on these projects!

i love my life.
i love my life.

this is the best experience i could possibly imagine for this summer....
i am very much filled with gratitude.

put me on the mood elevator

put me on the mood elevator
hot hot
i'm riding to the top
im going go from the bottom
to the top floor

its crazy hectic in the basement with the boxes
with the old and dirty shoes
i'm riding on the mood elevator
and i'm taking me with you

my clothes change colors from dingy to blue
my face goes from frowning to singing outloud shining with pleasure and goodness flowing thru
me to you
its my mood elevator
and i'm taking me with you

at the bottom floor we're sad and blue
but on the mood elevator we move right through
and what do we want
we want good good stuff
shiny steady central highness
traveling
up to the top
making everything glow in the light
glow in the sunshine
at the top
close to the clouds
close to the sun
laying naked and feeling alright
there where you'll find me
feeling alright
in the sunshine
at the top
feeling alright
all is well
and i am bright

so i moved everything around again...

if you know me...
you know i move things around a lot.

really... i think its a lot of fun.
i change every day to some degree... why should i keep walking around in the same scene?
its kinda like an environmental art project to me. i rearrange my environment and i echo whats going on inside me.

i have been inside organizing everything in my studio/office the last few days.

i have been sorting out art supplies.
& creating a massive spreadsheet "flowline" pages that map out possible paths for my summer & fall in regards to kastle key (yes, this is true i am a computer nerd)

and i have also been pulled into a massive organization of my house pictures. let me tell you, this has been on my personal wish list for 3 years now. its giving me a lot of satisfaction to create a little storybook of memories using all these photos. i'm happy to share it all, but really its for me. so that I can remember. so i can read the story again and again and remember how much i absolutely love my life. how many blessings have been there for me because i have believed in the power of life. its there for every single living breathing one of us... but this is my story and i relish in the details.

yeah, im happy.

check out my photography journal .. and click on "house love" to see what i'm talking about.