Excited to be painting the basement!!

This week I am feeling thankful for the flood.
It kicked my butt in gear on so many things.
Having to move every from the basement meant.... well, an EMPTY basement!

and what better time to clean it, paint it, redo the floors, and turn it into a whole new space.

I have decided to start using it for OPEN HOUSE.
I'm going to start inviting people over to play and hang out.

A *Resting Space* on my way....

I have been wanting to create an ARTIST RETREAT HOUSE for myself for quite a while.
I work well when I am alone.  I like to *~retreat~* hide away * think to myself.

The house on Ramsey Street is going to be a great mutlifaceted property/project.  
Its also going to be a RESTING SPACE for me on my way ....

twirling in the middle of all the details

the chair in my office is on wheels and rollers...spins around in circles and rolls around the studio to each little station i have set up.
reminds me of the way i mentally navigate between all the details of focus in my life.

i continue to turn round and around in an expanding circle of life. moving out to greet each new experience of focus.

i have been thinking lately about how life feels to me like a magical mountain journey. with a path that circles round and round and higher and higher.... the path leads me in circles of *cycle* the seasons change in cycles, my path travels in cycles, my days move in cycles....
and yet my cycles lift higher and higher.
my understanding changes as the perspective changes.
i come around the mountain and see the same scene as i did back farther on the path... but the view is different from here.



this is the evolution of me.
this is the expansion of my being.
feels good.

i come back around to some of the same life issues, same challenges... but practice brings mastery. and i find that my ability to navigate the extremes of life is fine tuned over time.

i like how i can see the natural progression.
it all feels easier as time goes by
i practice the empowerment of directing my life
this is the creation of not only a dream... but of a person
i am creating life
my life.

and no matter where i am. no matter what i am doing.
in the center of the circle of twirling details... me.

i'm on my way to a new space.
but the center of that space is me again. everywhere i go ...there i am.
so i'm excited that i am taking a constantly expanding version of self with me



and i am grateful for the time of conscious evolving that has been allowed in my life while i have lived, worked, and played here at the woodland street house

Summer Stillness

If I look at my calendar the year looks a little empty...
but within my ~experience of life~ there has been fullness overflowing.

what a year it has been!
there is a smooth stream of energy pouring into my life... and i am letting it move through me... and wash me in freshness.

life keeps changing in subtle ways that add up to big shifts within the very core of me.
i am grateful.
this is a season of stillness and reflection. and i am right where i am supposed to be.

i am enjoying another summer in this beautiful house on woodland street.
savoring the moments.
there is nothing to DO on the house anymore. its done. and with a .For Sale. sign in the front yard there are no big home improvement projects going on. hahaha isn't that fun. i'm just enjoying the place. watering the flowers on my front porch. changing the messages on the chalkboard. sipping coffee on the daybed in the morning. watching neighbors wave to me in the evening while they slip into maddonnas next door. surely my spirit planned this! ahahha
a summer to just enjoy and be still here.
this has been MY retreat house ya know.
more than anything it has been a place for me to retreat and grow. evolve. muse. enjoy. create.
and to share it with anyone that walked in the door.

I have also been out of the house a lot. the part of me that has moved on...
when i am here i am enjoying the space... but i am often itchy to get out and go elsewhere. expereince the next thing. and i find myself heading out and moving in new directions.

i drive down streets and see the new visions in my windowshield.
it all feels ok. it feels really ok.

and i know that life runs in cycles. this season will transition into another... and i will travel along the wheel of life.
i like it.

Big Burn Releasing Ceremony

So ..... I have been hauling around these boxes of life mementos for about 14 years.
Little keepsakes and memory items. I have drug them from one basement, attic, or storage room to the next.

Well.... its a digital age and 1000s of pictures fit on a tiny zip drive.

So, why am I hauling these every boxes everywhere I go.
Today I am spreading it all out across the floor... sipping tea an sifting through it all for one last time.
I am taking pictures of everything, and will keep a small suitcase of items that are really special to me.
things I can feel, touch, smell, and hold in the future when I look back....
but the rest is going to be released lovingly in a big bonfire tonight.
a beautiful release ceremony.
It feels so good to lighten the load.

*Big Thanks to Ashley for letting me use her zen house for the day!  what a magical, special place!  

Evolution of Life.....

I'm not done living...
I'm going to keep creating new experiences of living...

and then again.
I'm going to create again.

This blog has been a journal of my journey.
... and the journey keeps on going.

there is a common thread running thru the whole story. but the details change.
the story moves along.
new experiences.
new people.
new ways of understanding life.
and that is all ok

this is an evolution of life.

Life has been busy lately

Life has been very busy lately. good busy. bringing things together busy.

I am excited to have the house up for sale. There is unlimited possibility in front of me right now... and though I do not know many details for how everything is going to unfold..... I do know that I can feel the essence and it feels nearly tangible.

So. I focus on the "what" and "why" and leave the "when, where, who, and how" up to the powers that are greater than me. All will unfold for my highest good, and those around me.

I know that I can create anything I can imagine... with divine time and lots of imagination.

I have been taking care of details, and that feels good. getting some things done and wrapped up that have been sitting around waiting for my attention.

And I am also more fully diving in to create some new things. Its all written down. All organized and prepped to unfold... and now I am just playing with the details. have fun.

Its a time of focus.... but I am learning how to keep that fun rolling along beside me. I'm learning more and more about balance. Starting to really figure some things out that I have been grappling with for years.

so i am grateful.
and i love this moment, but feel so excited about whats next.

1311 Woodland Street is for Sale!

The last few days I have been getting emails and phone calls from friends who are a bit concerned that they have seen a for sale sign in the front yard.

All is well friends!!

Nearly four amazing years have been lived in this beautiful house and I’m only shaking things up a bit and taking some of my dreams to the next level. I’ll still be here in east nashville. and will be taking all the celebrating, parties, retreats and activities to a new space. In fact i’m looking for a space for The Divine Playhouse to expand. good good stuff is unfolding! i’m merely rearranging everything so I can more fully flow into this next phase.
so please…. wish me well, and imagine this smooth and easy transition with me. i know everything is coming together with divine timing. its fun watching all the details fall in place to pave the way.

Tonight… Feb 21st I am having an *Open House Porch Party* from 5-8

I will be lighting fires in the fireplaces and popping open a few bottles of wine. since i have heard news of snowflakes tonight, i’ll also have hot chocolate and marshmallows to roast in the fire.

I am intending to connect with someone who is ready to move in and enjoy this fabulous property. If you are that person, or know someone who would like to live here… I invite you pass this info along.

Tonight the whole house will be open for CELEBRATING! I will be celebrating the wonderful times I have had in this house. Celebrating the bright future unfolding… and I will be blessing the house with happiness for those who will be here in the years ahead. I will also set up a *Community Collaboration Art Project* in the main room.

I'll have the upstairs open also… so if you have ever wanted to come walk around in this house…. now is the time!
And here are pictures if you would like to take a peek now….

http://www.kastlekey.com/woodlandstreet

Ceremoniously Putting the Sign in the Yard!

Tonight we put the sign in the yard!!
we kinda made a big deal about it.

Ready for new adventures.

Time to divide this property into several new places.
Taylor is ready for a simpler place. I am ready to get a commercial building where my business can unfold.
I am also ready to have my very own Artist Retreat House to hide away when I want alone time, and time to work on creative projects.

So many visions for what's next.

Exciting times ahead. Change and Transformation in the air!

A New Phase of Life - Life Upgrade!

Lots going on these days. The house is ready to go on the market....I'm dreaming and making plans for the next phase of life.

I have these reminders on my desk. Allow it to be Effortless.

and.... Break the rules!
do things differently than you have been told they have to be done.live your authentic life. live it from your heart and soul

do you see what is in the bowl. broken crayons. i know.... a little crazy... but one day I felt like breaking the crayons in half. i heard this voice in my head saying, "but you are not supposed to do that!!" and i thought "why not!?"
I had so much fun cracking those crayons in half! I literally laughed out loud.Breaking the crayons was absolutely liberating. And now I can use them in a whole new way... gripped in my palm, pressing down hard on the paper so that the colors are intense and vibrant. it breaks crayons to color with intensity. have you ever noticed that?if you press hard they break. so its no big deal that they are already broken and ready to color outside the lines!

cleaning house

i have been wiping out every corner of the house. clearing out all remaining clutter from my life. fully aligning with the present moment ....

its so much easier to live life from the present moment.
less to carry around. less to keep up with.
much more satisfaction. now.

i like it *now*

i can go anywhere from this moment.
i can create anything with what i have right now.
and i will.

Its a most amazing moment

Right this moment I feel like I am in heaven....
Everything around me is absolutely divine and brimming over with beauty.

there is peaceful stillness in the air this morning...
windows open wide on a december morning... winds coming in and encouraging me. winds of change. gentle, easy winds of change
kissing me gently on the cheeks and whispering to me that everything is going to be ok.
really ok.
better than ever ok.
life is unfolding. winds are blowing. everything new is waiting for me.

and i am following the goodness.
stepping through fields of satisfaction... going towards more satisfaction.
its all right here for me
now.

I love my life.
I love that these moments come to me over and over.
no matter where i go.
no matter what material possessions are around me
the essence of this moment follows me.

its not about what i own
not about what i do
this love wraps around me every where i go.

I know there are big changes ahead and I am stepping into the moment with true belief that all is well and even more satisfaction waits for me.

Purrfect Love

The Kitties sit with me in the morning while I journal and meditate.
They look out the ~~~ window to the world~~~ with me.
and we imagine beautiful things together.

I love these pictures.
what happy little creatures of love!




They are happy to roll around at my feet and purrrrr.



They have purrrfect ideas about how to sell this house and move on to the next phase.
Good things are unfolding!

Preparing

I am hiding in my house right now. I am preparing many things for the big move coming up....
Its exciting times and I am overflowing with the energy of love and gratitude.

I am busy creating new things in fireworks. I'm sitting in my office by the fireplace. Its warm and toasty and I am enjoying this time of creating. I just had a cup of hot chocolate. I'm listening to good music. Everything around here is just buzzing with the energy of whats going on.

Good good stuff is unfolding.
I believe it is going to be an amazing journey as we step into this new experience...

Energy Into the Move

I have made an energy circle with intentions and visions for the move!

This is an exciting process.

I am so eager to see future dreams unfold !!

I have soaked up every sweet moment in this house.
Now its time to ~ DIVIDE~ this house into many other projects!

I am seeing
- Commercial Property for The Divine Playhouse
- retreat houses / rental houses
- my *own *office/studio artist reatreat house ~~~~ This is my favorite next dream!

So many dreams! I am ready to let this house go, so that I can create with the *Dream Seeds* that have been sown here... now multiplied into new seeds.

I believe that every detail is already worked out. I just feel the energy of that transition in my heart and I am there.
Beautiful.

Now I'm Moving !! ~*~*~*~*~*~ !

Its been a wild mini hibernation!
who thought so much wildness could bellow out of the cave of hiding.

I am very excited about what is evolving right before my eyes.
Reality is overflowing from my soul and into my life...


I am grateful! I am very grateful!
everything is really moving now... i think the earth is shaking below me.
foundations are shifting and new worlds are being birthed around me.

life is beautiful. life is so very beautiful.

rolling along...living life

Its been such a wonderful, FULL year! It's the beginning of the last month of the year and I am remembering where I was last year this time. I had just entered a deep hibernation. I went into my cave and sat with my soul. It was time of letting go of deadlines, expectations, and other annoying habits of living. And here I am one year later.... ahhhhh enjoying new freedoms!

Last year this time I stared living life by
my *FLOW LINE*

ah! I am really enjoying this new way of living. Its the "flow line" (as oppossed to the -deadline-)
The wintery weather has brought me back inside to my office more. I have been working on many projects the last few days. And honestly I originally thought that a lot of these projects would be launched already... but .... you see... all year long I have wandered along my little path enjoying myself. So instead of JUST doing the projects, I have also really and truly LIVED LIFE! and it doesn't matter that I am just now getting to some of these things...because I have all the time in the world. And I am living a FULL life every step of the way.
and really, is there anything better than that?!?!?

I'm living and enjoying life!
I'm playing!
I'm laughing.
I'm napping.
I'm having lunch on the porch.
making love in the afternoon.
dancing in the morning
painting at midnight.
listening and sharing with friends.
breathing deeply
hearing God whisper in my ears.
seeing the Universe dance before my eyes.
feeling Source Energy tickle my toes
Watching LIFE unfold before like visions that have come to manifestation.

and this is what I want more than anything
and this is what all the projects of creation point me towards...
so i am just living my way all the way...

now i'm rollin

I've gotten a good groove going. I finally got focused enough to really dive head over heels into some creative projects and I am just now coming up for air.

I think I'll sit here on the side of the project pool for a few minutes and dry off...
hahah

But. not long. I wanna dive back in and keep with this flow.
I really feel like the next phase of this creative sabatical is starting to gel in my mind and in my visions ... so.... whats that mean? it means it will start being a part of my hands on reality soon.
I see it, I think it, then I make it.

I want a really good run. then a good book. then a good nights sleep. tomorrow is gonna be a day for diving in again. my computer is humming. ahhaha

(ps. nerdy spreadsheets are dancing in my head. ) LOL

summer sabatical updates...

well....
so here I am.
quite a few weeks into my official summer creative sabbatical.

i have organized. i have painted my office. i have sorted through information. i have jotted down many notes. i have been moving at an easy pace. i have been building in bike rides, hikes, poolside book reading and coffee shop walks........

its just what its supposed to be and I am very grateful.

but i want to also acknowledge and talk about the underlying tendency to buck against this process and just go back to my old way of doing things. its a challenge to trust this process and keep believing in this way of easy-ness.

I had a chance, then two, then three chances to lease a building last year for The Divine Playhouse. I walked away from each...
why?
Because I have a wise heart beating in my chest and it is beating out a new rhythm for me. It is pumping life through my body in a new direction.....
I am here to breathe in this new experience before moving forward. I have carved away this time to create REST in my life. A PAUSE POINT. a moment of reflection.

I am giving myself the time to create with no expectation. no time line. no audience.
I am giving myself time to think.

The struggle the last 24 hours is what to "do" to step into a creation mode.
I know a lot about this hesitation before the SURGE of power that becomes CREATION.
what I do not know a lot about is how to handle my irritation with this moment. this irritation with myself for not being able to do it more smoothly.

so I waver in procrastination and fumbling.
i scoot things about. i make excessive messes. i clean them up.
and then finally i dive in.
i sit.
i stand.
i sit again.
until finally i am able to quiet the chatter of life and step into the moment of bliss.
the moment of CREATION

so maybe its a CREATION SABATICAL....

synthesize

Synthesize - this word means to put something together, to make something out of different parts. If you stitched a quilt together from different scraps of cloth, or built a car out of parts from a junkyard, you would be synthesizing. In chemistry, synthesizing means putting together new molecules. The act of synthesizing is called synthesis.

Even though we often use the word "synthetic" to describe human-made materials, synthesis also happens in nature. When the body makes molecules of DNA or proteins, we say the body is synthesizing these molecules.

*********internet definition******

The last week or so has been very interesting. I have been very weak physically. moving slow as if my mind wants every ounce of my energy to process information... or maybe its another part of my being that is in overdrive.

my brain feels like it is defragmenting the hard drive. I am SYNTHESIZING information and creating a new map of creation within my being.

I have been laying on the couch, or the porch, or in the bed a lot this past week. I read, nap, take notes... get up planning to do something, and then fall back into the same heap of concentration all over again. lots of synthesis going on...